My Angel Baby

Two years ago around this time I was going through a painful miscarriage. The real pain started after the physical trauma had subsided. I wanted to mourn the life that I couldn’t produce. I wanted to talk about the little heart that was beating in my womb for a while. I could never see this baby with my eyes but I had seen it with my mind’s eyes. I had seen the round cheeks , the button nose and the bright black eyes…. I had even seen the baby’s smile.. I wanted to talk about my baby but no body wanted to listen, every one would change the topic or tell me to be patient and focus on my other beautiful children. I coped with my pain by writing in journal and simply crying in dark nights... now the pain is gone but the scar is still there.
I just want to ask the readers to please listen to those mother who are going through a miscarriage. Just a few minutes of sincere talk to a scarred mother would really help the wounds heal.


My Angel Baby—by Lori Jager
To the baby that I carried
But never seen your eyes
Or tell you how much I loved you
Or ever to hear your cries.

You will never be forgotten
The excitement we had for your coming.
When I realized I'd never hold you,
The feeling I had was numbing.
My angel baby is who you are.
My angel baby you'll always be.
Your loving memory will live in my heart
So you will always be right here with me.